You know, when you've had a bad result from a prenatal diagnostic test you think that's going to happen again, even though the odds are against it. Most people -- the ones who haven't had the bad results -- likely go blissfully about their business, confident that such tests will reveal they are carrying a healthy baby. That's what I was like when I was carrying our Trisomy 18 baby, Will. Having gotten to 18 weeks without a glitch, I was confident all was ok. And it wasn't. And now every subsequent healthy pregnancy is overshadowed by the fear of bad things happening.
Which is why I spent most of yesterday thinking "They haven't called yet with the FISH results because they don't want to deliver bad news. They are putting it off." And then when it got to be 10 pm I thought maybe they hadn't called because they didn't have the results yet.
They called at around 10 this morning and the news was good. The tests for the three most common trisomies 13, 18 and 21 came back fine. And the baby is a boy. My audible sigh of relief was heard for miles around.
Now the question remains, can I enjoy the rest of this pregnancy? I didn't let myself enjoy my pregnancy with Jack because I thought the Universe might notice my joy and take it away from me. Am I over that yet? Maybe that should be another new year's resolution. (I give myself til my birthday later this month to finish setting new year's resolutions...)
Do I have the courage now to break out the noisemakers and party hats and do the dance of joy?
Excellent news!! And another boy, yay! Too bad you're moving away or we could get all our knuckleheads together for a throw-down!
Congratulations, and I truly hope you are able to enjoy this pregnancy. Savor those cankles ;)
Posted by: Plain Jane Mom | January 11, 2007 at 02:45 PM
I'm so relieved!!! Happy, happy, happy days!
Big huge congratulations. Pop the cork on the champagne, oops, fizzy cider? Anyway, this is wonderful, and I hope you are feeling well.
Posted by: Aurelia | January 11, 2007 at 04:56 PM
I'll blow a noisemaker for you. Great news.
Posted by: maggie | January 11, 2007 at 05:50 PM
Sorry ive been missing, bloglines has been playing up and i thought you hadnt posted in a while :( Caught up with your news thanks to Aurelia.
Fab news Jess, really pleased for you, brings me some glitter of hope for myself :) heres to an uneventuful rest of pregnancy! Cheers!
Posted by: Artblog | January 12, 2007 at 05:53 AM
I say celebrate. When it's time to mourn, there is always time to mourn. It's not as if being sad or reserved now will save you pain later. I know it's easy to say when you're on the sidelines, but enjoy this pregnancy. You worked hard and you earned a cup of seltzer and a slice of cake.
Posted by: Mel | January 12, 2007 at 03:23 PM
Delurking to say "Hurray!" and congratulations on another boy. I hope you can find peace and joy in the rest of your pregnancy.
Posted by: Patti @ Strollerderby | January 12, 2007 at 05:25 PM