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August 19, 2006

The abyss

In the weeks that followed, I could not bear to be alone. When David got up and went to work (he works from home in an office at the front of the house), I would follow him and just sit there while he worked.  I didn't need to do anything.  Just sit there. As long as I wasn't alone.

This was so unlike me. I've always been independent and celebrated my time by myself.  Not now. Only despair. I never felt so fragile as I felt then. Like the breeze from the window fan might blow away the pieces of my crumbled self. 

August 19, 2006 |

Tags: Infertility, Pregnancy loss, Trisomy

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